The Blog in my Pocket
A place to empty my pockets of their blog
- Name: Tai
- Location: Boca Raton, Florida, United States
I'm currently ABD at FAU in the Comparative Studies Program. I should be working on my dissertation (Urbanity, in general, and Detroit, specifically), but find that my cat, Mr. Emerson, has other plans for me. Until I break free from his little cat chains, I cannot even begin to think about my scholarship.
21 March 2006
17 February 2006
I had to do it
You scored 46% Sociability and 70% Sophistication!
|Your life can be difficult because of your insecurities, but you should know that it isn't your fault. YOU didn't ask to be thrown in around thirty times per page in every bodice-ripper on the shelf! Those who overuse you can kiss your . . . you know. You need to learn to hold your head high and glory in your solitude. You really do have excellent, scholarly tastes. You must never forget that your friend, the period, will be there to support you at the end of every sentence where you truly belong, and, if what is left out is as important as what is said, why, then you are as vital as the alphabet!|
|My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:|
|Link: The Which Punctuation Mark Are You Test written by Gazda on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test|
09 February 2006
I hope this won’t turn into one of those long, boring, “poor me” sessions but work with me, people. After passing my exams in December, the chair of my committee stepped down. Having no chair, but three people who are willing to serve on the committee but who won’t chair, has put me in a somewhat desperate mind-set. I know the right answer: buck up, do the work, and crack on without a chair. But something is keeping me from doing that. I don’t have the energy. Instead of focusing my time on the dissertation and its work, I’m thinking about the Sims. It’s so much easier. I can imagine them all having their own little life. They are hurrying through their day, working to achieve their goals, raising their families, writing their dissertations. It’s somehow easier to watch them succeed at my projected desires than to actually go out and fulfill them for myself. No fear of rejection, no lack of chair, no ANYTHING that would hinder a Sim life. And perhaps that is at the heart of my dilemma. I frequently project my idealistic, doxastic world wishes onto my unsuspecting, “real” world ontology. I can’t help but be disappointed. But here is the kicker. I don’t get upset with the people in my life who fall short of what I project onto them; of course not, how can I hold them to an arbitrary standard which I set and don’t bother to tell them about? Instead, I get upset with myself or the overwhelming nature of earthly disappointment. I do this to myself, too. I set up improbable possibilities for my own behavior, belief systems, appearances, relationships, &c. and then I overly abuse myself – emotionally, not physically, of course :-) – for my lack of perceived success. Of course, I’ve chatted with a therapist about this several years ago. It’s a behavior in which I’ve been engaged for my entire life. It’s not “perfectionism,” per se; “perfectionists” are anal about everything and I’m definitely NOT. Rather, I think I must be running from something but toward nothing. Am I afraid of commitment? That answer seems too easy, everyone has a “commitment problem,” and I’ve always thought of myself as being okay with commitment. But perhaps, just like the little Sims running around SimCity, I am only committed to the goals being projected onto me by an idealist outsider. Now if I could only find him or her, I could tell them to turn the game off and let me fade from their consciousness.
And just now I’m struck with that statement. It shows a fear of internal reflection. Again, not something with which I believe myself to be troubled. At my base level, I do believe I’m okay with my psyche – Freud would be bored. It’s everyone else in the world that troubles me.
23 January 2006
New City -- Pop 120,000
18 January 2006
What's in a Name?
Dear Mr. Emerson,
I was wondering if you could help me consider what the most 'liberal' state in America is (not necessarily for the feline species, but for those nasty humans).
Desperate to Relocate
I find it interesting that the comment is directed to Mr. Emerson. He is, of course, my cat. And possibly the most intelligent two-year-old that I know. I also find it interesting that the post is from an anonymous commentor. One should always own up to their words as not doing so is a sign of weakness. Even, dear commentor, if you are one of my students, you should know that I would never hold you in any kind of political judgement, nor would I chastise you for finding my blog by googling my name. That said, I like the question. What is the most ‘liberal’ state? It is compelling that you choose to put ‘liberal’ in quotes. I’m not quite sure what you mean in so doing. The best answer to your question, I think, is “state of mind.” One should always maintain a liberal, open, embracing, accepting mind set. Methinks, however, that the question is more literal. For that answer, I would suggest looking at the election results for the most recent presidential race. You have to start by finding the two big oceans and then finding the blue states which but up against them. I might suggest that Oregon, with its recent “right to assisted suicide” supreme court news is a good choice. One might even go to the North East where, in some very progressive regions, gay marriage is being debated or preformed. I would caution you to avoid Texas, where, thanks to republican deception and dirty-trickery, progressive thinkers will not have a voice until an accurate re-districting is complete. –
– At least that’s what Mr. Emerson has to say. I always agree with Mr. Emerson. He always agrees with me.
Out of curiosity, dear reader, Mr. Emerson is wondering from where you wish to relocate? What’s wrong with finding friends in your own “neck of the woods?”
Of course, curiosity did kill the cat.
16 January 2006
I'm back to let you know I can really shake it down
I had a great Christmas in Pennsylvania with my family and we threw a New Year’s Eve party to end all New Year’s Eve parties. This past week marked the beginning of the semester and I’m excited to be teaching Interp Drama this semester.
More as it becomes available